reluctant christian

 long time no blog........
How can anyone possibly condense, thoughts, feelings, reflections, and experiences of the past 9 months or so into a couple of paragraphs?

I became a Christian. There I  said it.
Shocking?
It was for me.

I don't know if I actually chose to become a Christian, in fact I don't believe that's what happened at all. I believe Christ chose me.

And I have no clue why?
My life was far from what the popular culture would have pegged as "Chirst like."

I have been savagely crtical of Christianity and the church.

And yet, it happened.

Goes to show you God has got to have a sense of humor.

Let's pick this broken down ol' alcoholic stand up comic and work through her..I can hear the Angels plucking an off chord note on their harp strings in surprise.

I guess I was saved for God's rainy days.

I suppose it was always lurking my shadows- Christianity.  Some Jesus-shaped heart was beating within me somewhere.  I remember at one of my many low points pulling open the Bible and just letting the page fall anywhere, it was in one of those "Godelpme" moments (you know, "God help me, God help me, God help me....) and it fell open at Isaiah 54.

My heart is on fire, and it isn't indigestion, it isn't a hot flash, and it wasn't chemically induced...it wasn't even something I wanted or expected. But it came to me, that Holy Spiit, that Amazing Grace and it hasn't left.

what on earth do I tell my atheist friends?